Sweet Escape..

Last weekend, we stayed 2 nights in Hotel Aryaduta, Karawaci. It's located about 1,5 hour drive from Jakarta.
The hotel itself has a lot of facilities that we can enjoy, such as swimming pool, spa, sauna, gym, and jacuzi.
But our main reason we were there was to gather with all of our church's servants. To make us all a unity group. We had outdoor activities in groups and we were given scores. My lucky husband's team was the winner/ the best team for the games that day and he also got one of the prizes. Tara...it is a new blender/juicer. The blender/juicer is for my mom. Ughh My God is so great, He really know that I need a new blender/juicer.  :)  Thank You Jesus.

Here are the pictures..

Dinner with friends.

Tonight we had dinner with our friends. The restaurant we picked is inside The Kempinski Hotel, and it's The Signature.
The ambience was great..the food was delicious, and it was cheap. They had a promo for using a platinum credit card, 1 price all you can eat package for 2 persons. We were grateful to have experienced it, since we don't have the bank's credit card and we have friends who have it. God is good.
Sum up...look at us, happy and full.

Dreaming of...

I'm dreaming of...
going to Prague to experience our love in a romantic city.....

source : http://www.mccombs.utexas.edu/bba/ip/prospective/mpa-short-term-summer/mpa-prague

love love love.....

here is picture from 2005...hmmmm.....seems not so long ago. muah muah love you baby...

Stupid things

Today, I made several stupid actions :
1. My mum had an accident, she fell and hurt her knee yesterday morning. And today, instead of staying by her side, I left her alone and I still went to Church. She was furious with me.
2. I asked her whether she wanted to go to hospital and she yelled back at me, said that I didn't care about her and she'd rather die than to be hurt emotionally because of my neglect.
3. I felt guilty and I apologised to her, but she wouldn't listen to me and kept saying that my religion and my God had taught me to be ignorant towards her.
4. I snapped and started yelling back at her.
5. and in the moments of desperation, I banged my head to her bedroom wall and I hit myself vigorously. I closed my eyes, cried as loud as I could, but I felt no physical pain just the overwhelming storms of guilty feelings. And I think I'd be seriously injured if my husband hadn't stopped me at that moment.
6. I had an emotional breakdown. It happened several times in the past when I'm really stressed out.
7. Later tonight, when I took my shower, I can see nail-scratches marks all over my forehead, several blue bruises, and several bumps at the back of my head. And ugh, they hurt a lot.

I regret every stupid things I made today. God have mercy on me, because I have sinned. :(

I'm sad...

Today I'm feeling so sad.
My sister and I, we had an argument this morning.
Her point was, she was having a miserable life compared to mine.
I told her, everbody has his / her own struggles in life.

I might seems happy from the outside views, I have a wonderful husband, a lot of friends, I am not working (by our own choices) and I am living close to our parents. But we must admit, we're not living our dream life, we dont have children, what we've been wanting for so many years, despite all the pain of tests, needles, medicines I have to endure, all the uncomfortable visits to our obgyn, all the time and money we've spent on baby that never arrived. We are still struggling with financial problems  because my husband being the sole bread winner and we also have so many obligations towards our parents.

I don't want to change my life with yours, but I also envy you. You have money you earn by working, you have a beautiful baby, and you can't hear when our parents scrutinised every moves, every decisions I made.

I pray to God that we are strong in dealing with  our problems.
I pray to God that you are healthy, wealthy and most of all happy with the life you are in.
Please, forgive me because I can't cheer you when you are feeling down and instead I made u more sad...

I miss you so much..
I am sorry, Sis...