Updates on the baby program.

I want to share updates on our baby program.

In the first cycle :
I had my period on 29th of August.
Took hormone intake for 5 days.
On the 14th day, we went to see my 'eggs' development stage.
Found out the fact that I had ovulated.
Disappointment urged.

In the 2nd attempt :
I had my period on 25th of Sept.
Took hormone intake for 5 days.
We scheduled our visit to the hospital on the 12th day.
My 'eggs' are not well developed.
We waited 2 more days and came again.
This tim, the doctor said my eggs were not fully developed and not mature enough to worth trying another step of the program.
Again, we were disappointed.

3rd cycle :
My hormone levels peaked up on 28th of Oct, so that very same day, I had my period and an emotional breakdown. : (
Again, I was scheduled to take hormone treatment for 5 days, this time with an extra dosage for each intake.
Our visit to the doctor on the 12th day, showed one fully developed egg.
I was thrilled. The doctor gave me a hormonal injection, specially targeted to make me ovulate.
The next day, we came back to the hospital and yes, on the 10th of November, I had an Intrauterine Insemination (IuI) procedure.
We waited for 2 weeks.

and here is the update.
We've failed to be pregnant once again.
Because just two days ago, my cycle started over again.

Sigh...
Now we are entering the 4th month. I really wish we can make baby/ies this time.
Wish us luck.

Want vs Need

Want.
What I want are :
I can go to each therapy, with my husband accompany me.
I want us to go out on weekends, to places like the malls, parks, visiting relatives or sick friends.
I want to spend all night long talking about us.
I want him to take me eat the food I crave, I mean right then and right away.
I want this, that and so many other things.

vs
Need.
Instead, my husband give me what I need.
He picks me up, on time and almost everytime when he knows I can't go home alone.
He accompanies me through every special moments, birthdays and even when I'm down.
He stands by me and he hold me close, whenever we are in a crowded place.
He always appreciates me, my cookings, my crafts, my opinions, everything I want to say about things.
He buys me things I need, running shoes for my yoga class, sunglasses when we are planning to go to Phuket, so many things that really show how much he cares for me.
He says 'I love you' not so many often, so that I can miss him saying that and so I won't take it easy.
He always hugs me.

God, oh I am so grateful we are united in marriage. I'm forever grateful for Your Love and his love.
May we can stay like this forever and more...
I really love you, my dear husband.

Baby Program...

In addition to the baby program, I searched for ways to enhance my fertility. We agreed to try acupuncture program.
It started on 27 September, and I've been going to the clinic twice a week for 30minutes in each visit.

There are some more photos of those needles punctured to my lower belly, but for privacy reason, my husband and I, we agreed not to post them public.
But to be honest, I somehow have to emphasize the efforts we've done so far. So, for those who think that I'm happy to do this, please think again....
Here I'm smiling to the camera, trying to forget the pain...